67 poems & 25 drawings, 2020-21
PANDEMIC POEMS AND DRAWINGS
SMALL DAYS
28th May 2020
To pinpoint the time in which this is written,
there are two main themes occupying
the commentators of the day. One concerns
the worldwide pandemic from which few are
entirely immune, the other the bizarre antics
and garblings of the self-centred thin-skinned
bully who struts around under the banner
'Most Powerful Man in the World'.
But as these are being covered internationally
by countless pens and voices, I'll just say
that the sky is blue today, and cloudless,
and birds are in the trees, along with new
leaves, and I have taken his breakfast
to the nameless cat that lives in the outhouse
that until two years ago was the make-do
studio in which I made abstract paintings.
But Nameless isn't there. Not there and could
be anywhere. He'll probably wander back later,
though, to munch his kibbles and sip from
his bowl of fresh water before strolling off again.
There. That's better. Little things in small days.
So much sweeter than adding further wordage
to bigger, more worrying subjects.plate.
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LAMBING SHEDS
Early March, the farm next door.
We watched a ewe drop her firstborn
on the ground. The little one lay confused,
eyes closed, as if wondering what
was going on. The mother began to lick
her infant with her brisk black tongue,
all over, every part. Little one's eyes
began to open. In a minute, still licked,
he tried to stand, and failed. He tried
again, and again, leg by leg, falling
each time, until he was up at last,
if shaky, still being licked all over, bullied
a little. Then he was taken away, roughly
stretched, this way, that, while a symbol
was painted on him. Mark of ownership.
There were many pens, many sheep, new
lambs. In one, a ewe without a lamb made
a racket that sounded much like grief –
'Hers was stillborn; she'll be culled now.'
Culled. Killed. For failing to deliver a life.
I could no longer enjoy the new lambs
finding their feet, stretching their legs,
bleating. Could only hear the heartfelt
wails of the unsuccessful ewe.
The one doomed for not delivering.
By the following day she was no more.
Only the memory remains.
And these lines, which feel so empty.
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ON THE JETTY (2020)
Directly out from the jetty,
between ten o'clock and two,
you'll find clear ground,
or so it says here. My memory
is less specific. For me,
from this sitpoint, the grey
stone jetty is all windy nights
and dark surrounds, a world enclosed,
wind-buffeted, rain-specked.
The small fishing craft, well secured
on the stoniest part of the beach,
the sky, cloud-rich, sneaking sly hints
of other worlds than ours as the wind
ruffled coats and hair, and hands
were clasped, then unclasped,
our selected enclosure tightening
with a wince, a laugh, a shiver.
Too soon by far to think ahead,
imagine, dread. Too early to not-plan,
too out-of-phase for negative
speculation. All seemed possible
yet nothing was foreseen. The cruelty
of one, which would force undreamt-of
transitions, in the course of which,
inside of which, anything might happen,
was not so much as hinted at.
The wind, the night wind, whipping
around us, cutting into us, jostled
the beach-boats but gave nothing away;
nothing beyond unease interspersed
with the bright pin-holes of other worlds.
Unimagined worlds, on the jetty.
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SHUFFLE
The odd minute here and there,
the occasional quiet moment
when the mind dances
between sunlit shafts of memory,
barely aware that you're
in someone else's world.
But then a throat is cleared,
a bird flaps by outside,
a door slams distantly,
and the here-and-now returns,
and a sigh is suppressed,
a hand turns a page,
and the minute and the moment
join all the rest,
shuffling for space.
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